Balance in Bites

For whatever reason, I’ve found myself itching to count calories again. I know this is a bad idea – really, it is. But…. I want to. Why? Well:
1. I’ve been gaining a bit of weight. Not a lot, but a little. My weight pretty much stabilized around 150 or so, and I’m guessing I’m somewhere [...]

So, I’m not dead. I’m alive! Thank you for all your comments/well wishes/etc. <3 I’ve been meaning to update in a while, but haven’t gotten around to it til now.
It’s highly unlikely that I’m going to continue updating this blog. Dieting and talking about dieting and thinking about dieting and blogging about dieting made me [...]

Sorry guys, but have another list to grace your presence. Lists are great because they require no real talent in composition. You just throw it down, bam, number 1! Bam, number 2! No writing effort required! Without further ado:
Good things!
1. Go read Quix’s blog. She’s pretty rad.
2. Christmas was pretty sweet! I got a Garmin [...]

SO! Things that are good:
1. I’ve been relaxing a lot.
2. I haven’t been bingeing, necessarily, but I’m definitely eating
more than I should, because I’m gaining weight.
Things that are not as good:
1. I haven’t run in almost 3 weeks, I think. And I’m doing a
half-marathon in 12 weeks. Gotta, uh, get on that.
2. I’ve gained about…. [...]

1. I’ve decided not to go back to that clinic. For many reasons, but let’s just say that yes, this IS the best choice for me right now, and yes, I DID give it enough time. I’m really proud of myself for trying it, and I think I took away some good things. But yeah [...]

Because I’m pretty exhausted, both mentally and physically, I’ll keep this quick.
FIRST AND FOREMOST:
To everyone who comments and reads and cares and supports and sends well wishes and all – THANK YOU. You have no idea how much it means to me. I read all your comments and they make me laugh and feel better [...]

Whew. Ok, let’s backtrack.
Yesterday: Went to my intake assessment at the ED clinic. I walk in, and everything is beautiful. It’s like a freaking spa in there. How the hell does my cheap-ass health insurance cover this? I furtively look around for super skinny chicks that will obviously look at me with disdain, and I [...]

Guys, I did it, I called. I have an intake appointment TONIGHT at 5:30.
I’m SO NERVOUS. *wrings hands*

I feel fat.
I hate saying that. I should NOT feel fat. I am a healthy weight for my height (despite my recent weight gain of 8 pounds), I run 3-4 times a week, and for the most part, I eat healthy foods. I am 5′6″ and weigh 148 pounds.
My blog started as a weight watchers/diet [...]

Recap of things in no particular order:
I had an AWESOME run this morning. I met up with Meghan and Elina and we did a solid 6 miles. I ran 1.9ish there to meet them, and then 1.9 to get back to my apartment. All told, I ran 9.7 miles, at an average pace of 9:19!
Totally [...]