Sorry guys, but have another list to grace your presence. Lists are great because they require no real talent in composition. You just throw it down, bam, number 1! Bam, number 2! No writing effort required! Without further ado:
Good things!
1. Go read Quix’s blog. She’s pretty rad.
2. Christmas was pretty sweet! I got a Garmin 205 (basically the 305 but with no heart rate monitor, cause I’d never wear it. I don’t really care about my heartrate, plus, how would I strap that thing around my monster of a sports bra(s)? Believe me, being “well endowed” truly does suck), plus a recipe book by Ellie Kirger, “So Easy.” Not only will I learn how to cook delicious, easy, fast recipes, but I’ll learn how to be more promiscuous! Weee!
3. I feel less in a funk, which is good. I’ve run twice since I’ve been home (note: after taking 2-3 weeks off, running on hills WILL MAKE YOU SORE, OW), and I feel good about that. Plus, I’ve been more mindful about what I’m eating. Not dieting at all, or counting calories, but also not binging. I like it. I’m hoping to keep this up through out the next couple months and maintain or lose very slowly. Which brings me to:
4. No more dieting for me, at least for now. You won’t see any calorie counts or WW points on here anymore. I don’t think it’s healthy for me right now. It took me a long while to come to this conclusion, because I really DO want to lose weight, and holy shit how much do I HATE to “give up” or “fail” at this whole thing (yes, I know I shouldn’t think of it like that, but goddammit it’s hard not to), BUT, dieting right now isn’t going to help me. Which brings me to my NEXT point (I love these lists):
5. Not dieting does NOT give me a free pass to bingebingebinge. It also doesn’t give me a free pass to throw the baby out with bathwater and sit on my ass and not run. I really, really really need to work on getting away from this all or nothing thinking. I logically know that if I have one piece of cake, it does not mean the world is ending. But my illogical brain tells me that, actually, the world IS ending, get your sandwich board and get out on the streets to hand out your pamphlets because this is it, we’re all going to burn in hell lest we REPENT!
6. I actually weigh less than I thought I did. At this point, I was thinking I was around 155 or so. But nay! I’m 149! Now, I know I said I wasn’t going to obsess over this and diet and count and all that, and yeah, I should get rid of the scale, but that’s actually one thing I’m thinking of holding on to. It would be nice to be able to prove to myself that I can actually maintain my weight, rather than gaining or losing. We’ll see.
7. My New Year’s Eve plan consists of staying in with my boyfriend, cooking a delicious meal, and drinking fancy champagne. It’s going to be *awesome.* =D
I think I’m done, actually. Everything is under the category of “good things.” I like that. =)
9 Comments
December 27, 2009 at 8:06 pm
I agree, all good things! I know it’s nuts, but I never saw results until I just let go. That doesn’t mean I still don’t struggle, but it’s amazing how the mind can work without all those food thoughts!
Your New Year’s Eve sounds perfect! Enjoy!
December 27, 2009 at 10:07 pm
I love the good things list. I’m so glad that you had a good holiday and that you’ve been feeling better about things. Woo hoo. Here’s to a new year.
December 28, 2009 at 4:46 am
Great list. I wish I could do intuitive eating, but I think it’s SO hard for some reason. That’s awesome that you’re having success with it
December 28, 2009 at 9:05 am
I have the same all or none way of thinking that you do. Its something that I really need to work on. Good luck on your “no-diet”. I think you’ll do just fine as long as you stay active. It sounds like you’ve really learned some things about yourself lately.
December 28, 2009 at 9:26 pm
Thanks for the plug!
I’m kinda in the same place you are – I am tired of banging my head against the wall with my weight. I’m thinking 201o might be the year to change my head instead of my waistline…
December 29, 2009 at 11:15 pm
Just found your blog — Love it!! I have the same NYE plans as you, and hopefully hubby doesn’t change anything! I think that’s very insightful to back off the calorie counts and WW for a bit. You know what’s best for you, props to you for listening! Looking forward to following and reading more!
January 6, 2010 at 2:17 pm
Good for you! No dieting, no binging but just enjoying your food and the eating of it. That will be the perfect start for the new year.
And about the running; good luck with your training for the marathon. I’ve had to injuries this year so I’m still training for the 1o english miles (15 kilometer). It doesn’t matter as long as I can keep on running.
January 21, 2010 at 10:32 am
we have an award for you!!!
Miss you!
January 21, 2010 at 4:53 pm
I hope things are going well for you. I notice you have not posted in a while and I totally understand. I just wanted to send you a note to let you know this stranger is thinking of you. I wish you the best.